Chapter 2: Johnny’s March

I met a man today 
that I could swear i met once in a dream 
the things this man did say 
flowed through my veins and made it somehow seem 
that there is so much more 
to love and light than this life could show 
and knowing this, i know embrace 
the grace in letting go 

I called out to the earth and sky 
to ground me and to keep my head up high 
I called out to the winds 
to stir the starting of the gentle fire 
I called out to the sea 
to sing a soothing song for me 
as crashing waves broke the chains 
of pain in my memory 

I sat me there beside the fire 
and stared into the oceans eyes 
she whispered me her secret desire 
of knowing what it was to fly 
in a flash she was in a crash 
her mist dissolved in a frenzied splash 
as the clouds came rolling in 

the fire crackled loud 
the pictures slowly melted all away 
the chemicals burned brighter than the 
brightest nights like fools we spent as days 
and like the wave, those days will live 
in the moment i chose to spread my wings 
and glide on the breath of the song 
of the oceans breeze

Lyrics Analysis

This, the second song on the journey, represent our sacral chakra. In this song cylce, It represents our connection to our creative energy as well as our emotions. In the last chapter, the man in white, a representation of a figure who comes as a guide in dreams, shares with the girl. He tells her to go to the ocean, and in her dream she travels there, to the deep waters of the unconscious, into the watery realms of her unprocessed emotions. In that moment of synchronicity, she it as a significant sign, she feels the rememberance of freedom, the taste of divinity in her veins, the winds within her moving. And so she travles towards the ocean.

In her dream, she casts a circle, calling to the sacred elements, calling to all aspects of the mortal realm, inviting herself into full presence with the journey. As she does this, she feels the elementals alive with her, and a deep sense of calm presence begins to set in. As she engages in union with the moment, she has the experience of the ocean spirit whispering to her of wanting to break free of the ties that bind to the past, and as she hears this sweet voice, she feels the waters of the sea crash, soothing the pain of her past. She watches as the mist from the water begin to rise, becoming the clouds. She is watching the waters transform form, and with this witnessing, realizes that her emotional waves can transform as well, lifting and becoming free as the ocean. Free as water falling into water.

With this sense, she offers the pictures of her past pain into the fire, times when she did not meet her own needs, times when her needs were unmet by others. times of addiction, times of trauma- whatever it is that has led her to this moment. she offers it all, spoken and unspoken, to the fires of transformation. With this, the dream is over, and she must continue on the voyage of discovering the deeper layers of what she is letting go through this mystical experience at the water. She awakes and is on the road, not yet at the ocean, but waking with the feeling of the winds of change upon her face.

Practices

With this song, we are beginning to look at uncovering and dismanteling the emotional habits that have kept us trapped in unconcious behavioral patters. 

1.On a peice of paper, journal everything that feels alive for you as something you are ready to let go of. What is it that is no longer serving you?  in the chapters to come, there will be much more to go into about these emotional processes with more specific writing assignments. enjoy this one without much structure. Allow yourself to tap into whatever wants to flow out from you right now regarding the change you are wanting to make.

2. when you have done some writing, make a special time to make a special fire and burn the sheet. As you are burning it, pay special attention to how it feels in your body to have these emotions transform. What are they transforming into? What is this making space for?

3. After you have done an initial journal and burning session, I invite you to take a deeper look at your emotions. Come and get familiar with this list of emotions. As we are becoming gaurdians of more activated and awakened energies, we are developing our own capacity for understanding the primary emotions. Our emotional literacy is a hugely developing aspect of our evolution. One way to become literate, and this is an assignment for those of you who want to get into all the cracks of your psyche- is to journal through all of the emotions on this sheet.

Emotions (second page of the two)
 

- Read all the emotions on the sheet.

- journal: about each emotion- when was the last time you felt this way? when was the earliest you can remember feeling this way?

- journal: when you feel this way, what happens in your body? are there sensations? are there places that feel tighter?

- journal: which emotions do you tend to feel most often?

Oi! What to do with all these emotions! Writing about them can often envoke them, so if you are finding you are having uncomfortable emotions triggered by writing about them, this is good! It means they are purifying, finding a way to be expressed. You are shining a light on parts of you that have been stuck back in the corners of your mind- its time for a good spring cleaning, yeah? Keep writing. More info coming on how to work with them :) keep going, you are doing great.