Chapter 3: The Wall
I am climbing on the wall
Hoping, praying I won’t fall
Facing west into my past
Wondering where it went so fast
Its been a long road to here
I saw the picture crystal clear
But as I ran fast towards it all
I was halted by the wall
I am sitting on the fence
Of chain linked lesions in suspense
Future untold to the east
Of pictures yet to be release
I see the long road to ahead
And though I meant every word I said
While I hold onto my laments
Ill chase my dreams from behind the fence
Sundown
Darkness caresses the skies
And oh the sound
Of stars resound in my eye
As I’m raised above the ground
My only question here is why?
Have I the will to break walls down
Or will this life just pass me by?
I am writing on the wall
Knowing well why I still stall
And as I wait for suns to rise
I silently say my goodbyes
I see the long road behind
I see the long road to come
And if I am to rise with the tides
I must come down
I must go on
I must look up
Embrace the dawn
Enjoy this life
And always remember to hum
Hmmmmmm
Lyric Analysis
This song occurs in the part of the story where the girl has been walking along the new path for a while. She had the dream about what the man told her, to go forth to the ocean, to let go of the pain of the past. As she is walking for a minute on this road, she comes upon a wall. The great obstacle.
This song falls into place as the third song, the 3rd chakra, the solar plexus. This center is associated with our source of power. Clinically this area of our body is an area where we store unprocesses emotions. We learn from a young age to stuff our emotions, and breathe shallowly as a way to feel less. When we restrict our breathing, our breath does not utilize as much of our diaphragm, and as such we feel less of whats going on.
As such, when we are young children we form beliefs, worldviews, ideas about our experience that can inhibit us from being fully alive, and activated with the breath of life. When we dicide to make huge changes in our life, we will surely come into contact with any and all of these unprocessed beliefs, stories, emotions that have been stored for countless years.
In the song, before being able to move forward, the girl sits ontop of the wall, looking at both the past and future, unable to fully be present in the moment. She see's the wall she is on, the obstacle o her destiny pah, built brick by brick of unhealed pains.
Practice
Journaling:
-what do you imagine are the bricks of your wall? What are your biggest obstacles? what beliefs do you have about the past, the fututre that keep you breathing shallow? Draw a picture of a wall with many bricks. In each brick, put one word, one story that you imagine is not yet fully processed, that has been holding you back. What are the biggest things alive for you as you are making change? What is maing it difficult?
- once you have filled out each of the bricks, and written about your own wall, destroy it! find a drum, and giant pot, a big noise maker, and make a ruccous! have a moment of ceremonail sound making and visualize that sound bursting through each brick one by one, until there is nothin in your path. repeat as often as necessary :0
5 Element Healing Practice
In the above worksheet, you will find a journaling protocol for connecting to another layer of the emotional process through journaling the 5 elements of chinese medicine, and their associated emotional states/ patterns.