Chapter 5: Word Bath

Word bath 
My skin is layered with regrets and confusion 
Dry and caked with self-loathing illusion 
Profusely deluded, 
I step into the awakening waters of a word bath Submerging myself in the soothing warmth 
of cleverly crafted concoctions 
of redeeming proportions 
Self-contained in notions 
Capturing with lettered lassos 
my undiscovered emotions. 
Through hoops of spiraling and spirited motives Resourcefully intended to emotively motivate me 
To contemplate and concentrate 
I elevate to new levels of creativity 
Out of needled pens, 
threads of ink link scattered thoughts 
Just on the brink of being realized 
Sowing together the loose ends 
of my forgotten serenity 
Did I mean sanity? 
Maybe it was the clarity of the sound waves 
Drawing out vibratory constellations 
Aligning within my mind the stars that I have been Consciously, and unconsciously 
Projecting outwards into the skies 
Painting hopelessly into wandering lover’s eyes 
Only now beginning to hear the reverberations 
Of their misleading lies 
In the development of the minds eye’s internal structure A foundation for the forming of the 
highest rises still to come 
These electromagnetic bowties 
decorate the lights formally channeled pathways 
Into the fanciest elaborations of her spirit 
Nameless to those who seek to contain her with words She spins the web of silken song 
Through which unseen magic travels along 
Clearly defined lines, 
limericks and rhymes 
Predesigned microchips of ancient wisdoms signs 
These symbolic seeds of sacred sound 
Planted into the womb of my imagination 
Patiently wait as I become the ground 
From which they will soon 
sprout their profound flowers of 
Illumination 
And as the jewel of the lotus unfurls infinitely inward 
I am nourished by the cleansing waters 
of courageous poets obsessions 
Who continue to track the evolution 
of earths symphonic progression 
The legacy of moonlit nights’ 
illuminating breathtaking beauty 
Is refining itself slowly 
Clearing way of laden songs 
Sung to mend the wounds of my empty heart 
Still echoing the cries 
of her unrequited love 

Ahh…… such calming waters

 

Analysis and Practice

 

At this juncture of the journey, the heart has found its heart song, its hearts expression, the key to the unfolding and wisom distillation. In my own journey, I wrote this poem, one of many which helped to unpack and integrate through words, speech and prose the process I had been exploring. I had been mostly focused on  healing heart pain, and allowing the practice of creative writing to wash over my consciousness as a way to ease this ache.

 

When I think of the girl on a journey, I imagine her just after singing her heart song to the full moon. As the moon is setting, and she is reflecting on the journey thus far, she is able for the first time put into words and understand the way her speech had been crafting her experience. At this point, she took the power of her own speech and words into account, and began practicing shifting her speech paradigm.

 

Some of the ways I have found extremely useful in shifting my own speech paradigm have been to consider several approaches. I have found these practices to help with all of my relationships, and anchor into a deeper truth and expression than I had felt before. 

 

One of these practices is that I considered the following worksheet

 Evaluations Masquerading as Feelings

 

I also began making a practice of speaking in a way that was

Truthful

Kind

Necessary

In a way that brought people together

 

It began a process of seeing every word I spoke as a magic seed that planted in my own consciousness, spinning out the world I was seeing. If i didn't like what I was seeing, It was likely due to something I was saying (through my words to others, through my thoughts to my self, and through my actions). Body speech and mind became a huge focus, and through this, worlds shifted.

 

More to come about this precious throat chakra, and coming into the beauty of our speech!

 

Journaling considerations:

What is my unique heart song?

What is my unique truth?

What is holding me back from speaking in my truth?

Am I afraid to share certain things with people? why?

how have I manipulated speech in the past? What was the outcome? How did it feel?